Well!
I came to the conclusion that as a birthday gift to myself I´m gonna start blogging. In my opinion it´s better to start late than never. Actually I don´t prefer to write in english but it´s probably the best solution because I have Finnish, Swedish and English speaking friends.
I have lived until this particular day in a supermassive black hole, so don´t get frustrated because of the writing style, text structure or my overwhelming lack of knowledge. See, everyone can´t be as talented as the gifted people... :)
This composition might sound a bit cynical and it definitively is! Plz. don´t get me wrong, because I still enjoy a load of things and I´m TRULY hopeful bout the future ...
... 30
Woah, I finally received the golden age 30! Hipp, hipp, hurray ... - NOT!
The World is still in everyway a totally Fuct Up place, so there´s REALLY nothing to celebrate.
Probably a lot of you people would say or have said:
- STOP thinking and start enjoying your everyday life...
I´m sorry! That´s not me anymore... I´ve tried to live that way, but it didn´t work. In my opinion the life´s actually just a large bubble filled with hypocrite lies. Or let´s say the pretended life, not the REAL stuff.
(Hmm... You´re to serious! - NJET!!!)
All my life I´ve tried to find my place in the social room, but unfortunately always caught myself messing everything up because of the strong anxiety I´ve felt. This was something that really frustrated me when iI was younger, and I started to avoid certain things and happenings. Luckily
I´ve overcomed it somehow nowadays and I´m now able to focus on the things which I feel is important. My options were:
- Continue monkeying around
- Stand quiet in the corner
- Just listen
- Be totally outside
- Get in contact with the Owner of the house
I chose the last one ...
I made a decision already earlier in my life; actually after my soulful daughter was born, that I´m gonna fight for true righteousness with my every breath till it´s time to cash in the chips... Or at least try to do it, cause after all we´re just humans. (Humanoids)
Fortunately there are many good-hearted people out there, who has chosen this same narrow path that I´m trying to struggle on. Together we´re strong enough to carry on through this shitty life. - Hell yeah!
Hopefully our chosen path is not only spiritually demanding but also gives us a brighter future where our children safely can grow up ...
After this, you probably think that I should thank GOD for everything - but that doesn´t fit in - Or does it..? In my opinion the "Godly-institution" has been worn out a long time ago due to our egocentric, over-rational behavior. Back in the days we "starry-eyedly" exchanged our peace loving Creator for the not so unfamiliar rat faced Ol´ Harry. He who has it all; gambling, fast cars, beautiful women, nuclear warheads et cetera...
-Think about it! People are nowadays even thanking GOD for the opportunity to act in pornographic movies... And don´t forget the "Texasian" barbecued chicken, who actually thanked GOD for the war efforts he made in the Middle East. Pretty nasty sponsorship for the crusade - What do you think?
I myself prefer much more concrete actions. Maybe something like:
"Give me Christ or give me Hiroshima" (Leonard Cohen, 1992)
Now it´s time to put an end to this first script, by giving my best regards to all the people who has supported me throughout my life. I really beg that everyone could wake up and see the big prosperous picture. That´s actually the only way to prepare ourselves for the struggles which are to come.
Together, if we´re dedicated enough, we could start the revolution for World Peace. And in my opinion it´s better to start right away, because our time is running out... I truly belive that it´s no use to save this planet of ours if we can´t save ourselves.
Well, i really wish from the bottom of my heart that this truthful journey sometimes comes to an end, and finally brings us the enjoyable fruits of Continuity, Peace, LOVE and everlasting Harmony ...